Let’s talk about GOD.
Being born into a strictly Catholic and large family, I had the understanding that religion and going to church was an obligation or task, rather than a relationship with a higher power. However, this was my view on Catholicism and church throughout my adolescence. We would make the hour drive to a specific church in Los Angeles every Sunday morning to meet with the rest of our extended family, and attend mass altogether. Routine-like ceremonies would occur, ranging from readings of the Bible to worship songs. All of it seemed strictly procedural. Reflecting back on all of this, my view on religion has shifted dramatically in the present.
Religion can be quite a sensitive and controversial topic to discuss, and it often scares me to bring it to light. I believe religion is your own personal set of beliefs on the creation and purpose of humans on earth, with consideration of a higher power that has a stronghold on the direction of your life. Religion exists as a sense of stability in life. We attend church to form a closer relationship to God, hoping he will bring us control to our lives when we feel powerless. Admittedly, I do have wavering faith, or trust, in God’s power, but I mainly attend church to self reflect and understand that some things are out of your control, and others you have the power to change. Rather than attending church to have a definite sanctuary to claim as your place of religion, I go to church alone, when I wish to learn more. Granted, I have began going to Christian mass over Catholic mass because I feel like their lessons have more relations to my own personal life, and I can further understand the words of God on a personal level. To me, a single figure, or a God, is the creator of the universe, who has the power to change the direction of your life, only if you are willing to work to improve your life as well.
Though I do attend Christian mass, it has been a struggle for me these past couple years over the idea of fate and faith. I admit my faith in God is not quite steady, to say the least. In Christian belief, fate is the idea that your life is set out for you. I am having difficulties understanding this certain aspect of Christianity because I believe everyone has the power to change the direction of your life, and no one has a set future. Reflecting on my own path, it has redirected several times that I am not even sure it is just a single path! Still a little confused, a little broken, and just looking for direction. In my perspective, no matter the religion, we all share the same power of changing our own lives and altering our own path according to our own time.
What do YOU believe?
As always, thanks for stopping by.
Rachaelle
Rachaelle–I’m so with you there. I’ve grown up as a Christian–I hold my beliefs so dear. But, I feel confused as to why the world is set up this way, and I struggle with God’s design. I wonder why things must be so difficult? Why the disparity? It’s all a huge struggle that goes up and down for me.